I see many people in the spiritual and new age communities talk about their spiritual awakening as one significant event. For some this is absolutely true. It’s that one Ace of Swords “ah-ha” moment otherwise known as an epiphany. This is the pasture just on the other side of the cognitive dissonance fence. When we, by choice or by force, shuttle through the barrier of what we believed to be true, learning it is actually false and we know nothing at all – and that’s okay!

For some this is not the case. If you are like me there was no single one moment to attribute to the awakening of your spiritual Self. Rather a series of moments, little ah-ha!’s that felt more like I-knew-it!’s. A path that has breadcrumb trails rather than flashing signs that smack you in the head.

This is what my journey has felt like. No flash of realization that there is something bigger than us all, that all this is an illusion, that we are all One and that the government, corporations, and media lie so much that if we knew the real truth our heads might explode. For me, and maybe for you too, it’s been a more subtle uncovering of layers that have spanned many, many years.

For the record, those who do have a defining awakening moment, that is only the first, the tip of the iceberg. You do not awaken once and that’s it. There is always more. For everyone. Life is an onion; a great addition to most dishes, but will also make you cry… oh and the layers, don’t forget the layers.

But if I did have to put it down to any defining moment, I would like to give credit to the moment 12-year-old me saw Bill Hicks on the comedy channel late one night. His rants have always stuck with me. He spun things in a way that would illicit a chuckle, but sometimes they were observations of things that weren’t actually funny, and that Hicks’ ire on stage was most likely very real.

At this point I had not heard George Carlin’s stand up (he was still Mr. Conductor and Rufus to me), a few years later I would hear Carlin and realize that some comedians might actually be prophets in disguise sent by God herself to wake us up to this crazy ride.

“The world is like a ride at an amusement park and when you choose to go on it, you think it’s real, because that is how powerful our minds are. And the ride goes up and down, and round and round, and it has thrills and chills, and it is very brightly colored, and it is very loud. And it is fun for a while.

Some people have been on it for a very long time, and they begin to question, ‘Is this real, or is it just a ride?’ And other people have remembered, and they have come back to us, and they say, ‘Hey, don’t worry, don’t be afraid, ever . . . because this is just a ride’ . . . and we kill those people. ‘Shut him, up! We have a lot invested in this ride; shut him up! Look at my furrow of worry, look at my big bank account, and my family . . . this just has to be real.’  

It’s just a ride. But we always try to kill those good guys who try to tell us that. You ever notice that? And let the demons run amok. But it does not matter, because it’s just a ride, and we can change it any time we want. It’s only a choice. No effort, no work, no job, no savings of money, a choice right now, between fear and love.     

The eyes of fear want you to put bigger locks on your door, buy guns, close yourself off. The eyes of love instead see all of us as One. Here’s what we can do to change the world right now to a better ride. Take all that money we spend on weapons and defense each year and instead spend it on feeding, clothing and educating the poor of the world, which it would many times over, not one human excluded. And we could explore space together both inner and outer forever in peace.” – Bill Hicks

Have you had a defining moment, slowly removing the layers, something in between, or something else I haven’t considered? I would love to hear your experience on your spiritual awakening path.

Brightest blessings,
Phoenix Rose

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